Issues

[degohi]

my lust has caused us to lose trust in us and we fuss because we doubt the cause of love so we think of how we treated others and measure ourselves against each other not realizing we're bonded like no other and should remain walking on top of the water ego's lead forsaken truth we allow our sins to feed on the roots of I through you but we won't ever admit the truth was simply wanting to be covered while like a snake shedding its old skin and found dressed in and anew dayum if only i could master the art of placating your demons then we'd be no less apart than the running together of seasons if only i was as smart as those decades old reasons that keep you the beacon in your house of dark i shall always be cast in nets for men to grab and i to get away because the truth is they want nothing i have but for me to lay and do whatever they say a puppet without strings who understands those most trivial, mundane yet pertinent things how can i be silent following with a voice that loves to sing each time or moment you're building a case a stanza filled i have to play getting away from one is unlike running from another choosing the one who says he loves and wants me and refuses to accept my no's because i'm turned away by another is frankly an scary charge to take in my wake i don't think i can fake being taken, charmed, breathed on... i charter duplicity the baby & the fool to be known dubiously as your honor & your muse i think it reasonable to assume you knew i wanted every part of you selfishly and when turned away i became unruly no reasoning to the nasty and deceitful role i was playing because it seemed in the moment i too you were gaming then you turned to silence to lead me and i was swept by my need to be protected i was too afraid to hear what i thought was my worst nightmare a chance i didn't want to face now dayum we're in this place because i chose to walk away and you let me answers we both don't need trust gone but i came back to try and heal us but you decided that was that and just went through the motions weakly as if my soul would not know the difference you being off a degree nothing goes right when magic is dispensed over the soul of love itself makes me wonder if ever it will work with me and someone else i should have gone on like i had planned being alone after being pushed in the sand by another man just because i "pushed" his hand ---